Simbang gabi: 2nd Night

FRIDAY-NYT

 We don't have the group therapy class because Dr. Lota had an emergency. The postponing of classes was announced last week. So the night went… still in Ateneo. I tried visiting the library to get the book the we need for our group therapy reflection paper christmas homework..but the lib was closed! SO I went back to my dorm and fixed some things.. Then I went to Fullybooked to look for a gift for the SS Christmas party tom. I found nothing to buy :|

I was singing and humming as I walk and enjoy my solitude towards the church.

Then, I headed back to Gesu, Ateneo. I was approximately 30 mins earlier. There were more vacant seat. I sat first at the middle right side. But the fan was too far and I really felt hot so I transferred. I ended up seating at the most right side. I was thinking this once I felt comfortable seating:

"I think it is not always that single man ends up with a single woman or vice versa; sometimes single woman go 'chase' taken man and vice versa."

I look aback.  There, I thought God was kidding me. Or I thought I was mistaken to see one time big time crush MAC seated just a row on my back! I tried to glance at the ceiling which are glasses so you can see the reflection of people seated. I saw him but because of my poor eyesight I can't be sure. Then, as if God was speaking to me directly, two people seated beside him and started a conversation. If I am not mistaken, he knows the man. Then the girl was just a new acquaintance.  So their conversation was a get-to-know thing. That was the cue. He mentioned he came from UP, that he is taking Medicine, specifically Community Nutrition… so he is definitely the Macapinlac that once made me a lil insane! :)) But seeing him in his 'solitude' (because the two seemed just beside his seat accidentally..or maybe for a reason,too) is AWKWARD! Define AWKWARD! What has been more awkward that added to the awkward situation was when Father was saying the Homily about Testimonials. Well, it was awkward because the main reason why we met 8 months ago was because I delivered a "testimonial" in the form of an inspirational speech for their class project.

I tried hiding my face, staring on the right side of the Church instead on the left, where the priest was. I was too busy thinking of how to "escape" from that really awkward situation that my attention was divided on listening to the mass and trying to think of ways to "avoid" him. I have no reasons to avoid him, but I just don't feel like seeing him or even saying Hi! to him right then. Forgive me God, but the moment I realized it was him, I panicked and I was cursing in mind! Inside the church! How I hope that I evaporate right there and then. I was avoiding the peace be with you part because I don't want to face him literally. I was thinking, when was the last time I saw him? I think it was last May. When I got the chance, which was when he stood up to receive the body of Christ, I stood up and walked away. But I stopped in a line for the receiving of Ostia on the main entrance of the Church. I received the body of Christ then went back inside, this time just standing near the exit. Not to mention the tempting generous offer of free coffee after the mass on the Bel Field! But i dont want to risk staying.

Then I was brisk walking back to my dorm.